Thursday, July 06, 2006

And forgive us our sins; for we also forgive every one that is indebted to us.
(Luke 11:4)

On this day, I was carefree, with little cares that weren't powerful enough to choke.

Running through my regular chores, I though that I needed someone to help me out with a small bottle of water to quench my thirst and Arvindh, the assistant jogged my memory. I called him and when help wasn't forthcoming, I called him again. He turned up with a sort of resentment in his face and speech.

I was irate at this sort of response-picked the water bottle, made my way to the wash basin and poured the water right in front of him. I came back to my seat and I felt that I had put on extra weight; I felt, felt it in my head and heart. The earphone music didn't drown the trouble that was brewing within.

God, my heart cried, Iam sorry. I was ruthless with this guy. I shouldn't have done it. I didn't forgive that little act of his while still carrying the tonnes of forgiveness that flows from you every moment of my life.

I cried and I said to myself.............I hate ME! Never again. How much would this act of mine hurt a soul that expects not a rush of anger!

I'm sorry people...............Whoever I have offended! Wherever you are and whatever you do.......please forgive me .......I had hurt you all on account of my ego, my pride and selfishness. I hadn't cared about your state when I was pouring my outburst!

Change me oh GOD, into a being of love!

I'm beginning to sing that old song that I had learnt as a kid at school.


Make me a channel
Make me a channel of your peace.
Where there is hatred let me bring your love.
Where there is injury, your pardon, Lord
And where there's doubt, true faith in you.

Chorus:
Oh, Master grant that I may never seek
So much to be consoled as to console
To be understood as to understand
To be loved as to love with all my soul.
Make me a channel of your peace
Where there's despair in life, let me bringhope
Where there is darkness, only light
And where there's sadness, ever joy.

Chorus:
Make me a channel of your peace
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned
In giving to all men that we receive
And in dying that we're born to eternal life.

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